Dear Dr. G.,
I want to leave my family. I have two boys ages 26 and 20. I love them dearly. I married for the first time in 2005 to a good guy. The only area we are not compatible in, and never was, is sex. I married him knowing that because I felt there were more important things than just sex. It was hard for me to get married because I had come a long way and was independent.
Over the past couple of years I have resented everything. I first became a mother at 19, so you see I never had any ME time. Yes that was my choice. Obviously one I knew nothing about. Now I resent responsibility. My husband and sons and 2 dogs do nothing but make messes. I am constantly cleaning. I get enraged over it. When everyone is at work I feel relieved and peaceful. I get anxious when they are all due back home at the end of the day.
I am constantly yelling at the dogs. They have ruined rugs and furniture and i cant stand the mess. I do love them. I didn’t always feel this animosity towards them and now it’s a daily thing. I constantly day dream about running away and having my OWN place, to myself with NO ONE else. I hate it here. I hate my sexless marriage. I hate the cleaning. I don’t even feel like a woman anymore.